Journal #1

Dear God, would I end up doing everything horrible?
I failed once and I can't fail any coming tests
Guide me and help me, please.

February，張曉風

　　國中時無意間接觸莫內的畫作，看完張曉風的文章後便深深愛上這位畫家。莫內的色彩的妙處在於「身歷其境」。看〈印象‧日出〉彷彿可感受到黎明時分冰涼的霧氣，半醒的世界全聚焦在初升的太陽。看〈夏末時分的乾草堆〉，午間的陽光從畫裡透出來，曬得稻草漸漸變熱。晚上11點坐在臺灣的電腦螢幕前，窗外泛著路燈醜陋的橘色。但看進莫內的畫，好像闖進了法國農莊早上11點新鮮的陽光中，舒暢自由。

　　而張曉風讓我驚豔之處，在於她用文字將莫內畫中的意象透出紙外。「那畫面灰藍灰藍的，有光，光卻幽柔浮動，跟我住的那個城裡晒得人會冒油的太陽截然不同。」似乎同是南部人，看過蒸騰的路面，更能感受對幽柔浮動光線的嚮往。她和我同有一分可笑的浪漫和想像，同樣喜歡深究美麗的事物，同樣愛作夢。

　　有朝一日，我想去看莫內。畫作我已見識過，我更想看莫內的陽光和空氣，走進畫裡。

Janurary，龍應台

讀完親愛的安德烈－－

《親愛的安德烈》是我百翻不厭的一本書。龍應台在德國長大的兒子安德烈擁有獨立意識和豐富的知識，有種躍躍欲試的反叛心態（也許是因為和母親對談），而龍應台則用她一貫的細緻文字和思路，加上不少勇氣和包容，認真試圖理解她的兒子。

19歲的安德烈，不比我大多少，閱歷比我豐富得多，但十年前他面對的世界和抉擇，似乎和我相差不遠。處在一個同時被當作成人和兒童的年紀，雖已擁有自己的思想模式，但仍有相當程度的理想主義和清狂。選文中，清楚道出了青少年末期、二字頭初期的問題：我到底算不算成熟的個體？同時也在挑戰父母，到底該不該把這個半生不熟的人當成一個另一個獨立的個體看待？

龍應台願意將兒子視為另一個引人好奇的個體，也開啟了這本書的世界。我在裡面看到兩個文化的世界觀，不同角色所做出的反應，和深入、真的對談。國家對你來說是什麼？你覺得什麼是Kitsch，劣質的藝術品？香港人的文化在哪裡？你怎麼定義這個標準不一世代？家鄉對你的意義？

在開了視野，經歷了一場思考馬拉松的同時，我也同時在想，兩年後的我，有能力這樣向別人談論我的世代、我的文化、我的世界觀嗎？

Diary: Sep 2-8

Mon-

被開學考轟炸的一天。
物理化學大概都要不及格了吧…
(英文98哈哈)
然後歐陽妮妮好正。
開學禱告會的poster出奇的好看

昨天回去看無名發現我真的是蠢到一個極致@__@
想像一隻跳來跳去吃了興奮劑的可愛過動兒麻雀在地上啄東西，然後把畫面加快10倍。
然後還會突然嚇到飛起來，或是暈倒在地上。
…對 網誌讀起來就是那樣。

我的人生好像自己分成這樣：
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出生     怎麼看都很可愛       怎麼看都很蠢        現在
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Tue-

跑班好好玩，跟大家一起嗨~
生物老師是個有趣的人，She saved Tuesday.
金源是個喜歡用激問句的老師
明天要家聚我還沒打電話-0-晚上定位子235巷居然訂不到嚇死我!!!

還好訂到佐佐義的位子，學姊學妹也都沒意見(喘)(真的快嚇死)

聽了Shine禱告會的Live，Nathanael 的 Bass好強Q__Q然後久違的電吉他聲音老是讓我很感動…well-formed 的樂團和歌和Vocal啊(嗟嘆中
覺得快變成音樂白痴因為自己太懶惰.__.沒有歌聲沒有琴聲(不管哪台都一樣)連聽音樂功能也快沒了!!!(被自己氣死)還有英文單字也沒在背 是怎樣+___+ 好想念自學喔。
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Wed-

還真的太久沒聽歌… 是有那麼久沒聽到滿滿的音樂嗎聽到好感動XD I love earphones...
好懶得送小卡哦= =
剩兩天早起就週末了混教會了!!!加油💜
家聚小乾。

*學妹和我走到捷運的時候偶而有話聊 怎麼到餐廳超安靜...
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Thu-

早上不想去學校，媽咪說可以請假:D So I had a great morning!
鋼琴課也好棒:)

*下午小卡就由大膽的以彤丟給學妹了，哈哈哈好開心

When someone picks everyone including your best friend and didn't pick you. I feel useless...(有點失望
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Fri-

昨天挺難過的，睡一睡就好一半了(但還有一半，回去看會冒出來) 

我根本是在自我傷害嘛(白痴。)*果然深夜還是該睡覺。
中午本來旻俐老師有約結果她消失了@__@ 豪詭異。
迎新快快到吧好期待(而且迎完就週末了。這是重點。)

*迎新超棒!! 那種氣氛讓學妹即使玩遊戲輸了也不會怕(我覺得啦)

雖然演戲台詞都亂來(至少我是...)但接得天衣無縫欸團契太神了  敬拜的時候唱我們愛，看到高三的學姊搭肩再一起好感動! Thank God

回去搭不上43分的公車差點哭了，結果又一班出現了! 超神奇的耶

最後平安到家了感謝主~

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Sat-

Best day of the week!!! We met Chris and Charis at ding tai feng this noon, and they are so really nice. Chris is even more funny than I expected which is a good thing! And we spent the afternoon together, skipping the painting class, than went for Dinner together too :D after that I went to church as well, having a worship/praying service. The people were so nice and the atmosphere was AMAZING. Back home I got some quality time with mommy! BTW I actually spent quite some time switching from Chinese mode to English mode, and switch them back in the evening. Today is even more amazing than I thought!!! God, thanks so much for all those great things.

*Chris真的超好笑，無時無刻都可以開玩笑...但是我花了一小段時間才適應要一直講英文哈哈 我們去吃鼎泰豐好好吃:) 晚上還去吃尼克牛排嘿嘿 

晚上禱告會很開心 一進去就很喜歡那個氣氛，而且今天弦樂效果超好!

雖然錯過圓夢計畫 well but it's my choice so... :)

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Sun-

我覺得我今天超帥的(自己說) snapback戴起來好帥哈哈哈

可能下下周會繼續畫畫班耶好relaxing，我好像應該去找個素描班for my future.

中午高女小聚結果還是沒結論。 但是有小分享很開心

噢不明天要上學。連續。六天。<--一直耿耿於懷

I need weekends and Church life or I'm gonna die...

If I can go back to the States then I'll definitely go to see Tig and Yoda <3 cutie cats

The End.

Byzantine tattoo inspiration

_I think
Any gorgeous, romantic, beautiful patterns are really suitable for tattoos. This one i drew on my hand is geometry, and full of same graphs which makes it easy to do but still good looking. 

If you think getting a real tattoo is a huge decision, or you might be soon tired of the design, painting it by YOURSELF is a good chice! plus DIY makes a lot of fun. 

Why not draw a simple & cool pattern on your arms?


_Stuffs needed
ballpoint pen, designs

*I'm not sure how the ink effects our body. Don't use it too often.

http://www.wimzy.com.au/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/Byzantine-Style-Bangle-2.jpg

_Story behind

I was searching for Byzantine style frames to put on the birthday card I'm making, and I googled several pictures of it and I like this bracelet so much!! At the end, I didn't actually apply those frames on the card, but on my hand LOL. 

Since the courses this morning were so really very much boring, I doodled this on my wrist in only 5 minutes with my um-151. No it's not any advanced expensive paintbrush, it's just my ballpoint pen :D It's a really useful one, and it's the best kind of pen for nail art since it won't be blurred by the top coat. It's really convenient to do nail art with pens instead of brushes :) 

Have a good time playing!

Just a diary

我已經有點懶得算是回來第幾天了。
好像我一直都待在KGHS一樣。
不過既然想到了就來加一下吧。
今天是回來第86天，已經考過一次段考，頗習慣待在KGHS.
Ohhhh typing English is so much faster <3
And the second exam for this semester comes in seven days :-/
But I just feel like WATCHING MOVIES and FINISHING MY NOVEL.
Too bad :P
But I'm wishing to have better grades :9 well that's obviously annoying.
I got fifty something on math quiz recently, and I DON'T want to have that sucking grade when I am having the exam. Same as physics :-/
I miss weekends... Miss the church... Though it's only TUESDAY?!
after all, my classmates are all cute (but not our homeroom teacher).
Expecting for Christmas :))))
I bought a magnificently adorable red and black shirt :)
Well, hope everything is good. Including my grades...
xxxx

Blank a bit

7 Tue

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8 Wed

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9 Thu

chopper ride (amazing!!!) Sam's, bought my ipod, country style restaurant

10 Fri

left Kingsport, went to a big cave (i forgot the name again), The garden Maze, same restaurant

arrived at Donna's farm, met Grandma, Donna, Amanda, Alex, goats and Duchess (the big dog).

11 Sat

horse riding, meet the cow, cats, chickens and Donna's friends. nice breakfast by Grandma. 

to the mall like building, sweet frog and second handed clothing store. mashed potato, grilled salmon and king of soda drink for dinner. thanks to grandma. arrived Hake's home (it's so dark there.)

12 Sun

went to their church (i like celebration church more), swimming and hide and seek with the girls (Nessa, Talia and Elaina I think), nice dinner by Luke and Liesl, great talk with Hannah! vanilla ice cream and brownie.